Okay i guess i wasn’t done. Well i’m done with talking about Josh.
Now i sit here and think about everything that has happened this year. I have met so many great guys this year. Some for just fun and others i have thought would be something more serious but they just didn’t work out. I had some of the best dates of my life this year, and even last summer after josh and i broke up. I went to an arcade on a first date over the summer. Beyond fun! It was one of the best first dates ever. When i got to school, a guy took me to an italian restaurant, then we went to bigstar for a milkshake but that was the weekend they closed soooo we searched around to find Shirls…and even though he lives in kenosha it took him a good 30 minutes to find it. I conquered that milkshake and it’s still a joke between the two of us. That night we sat on the rocks by the lake…one of my favorite spots to this day, and just talked for hours. This is where he told me he was the national pokemon champion. A few days later we went to the beach with chocolate chip cookies and watched the moon come up over the lake. I have no idea why things didn’t work out between us but those were some great dates! Oh, and how can i forget…we went to see finding nemo at the drive in as well and he brought my favorite candy and i brought his! It was perfect! But didn’t work out. Then there was another guy. First date was cold so we just hung out in my room. Second date was warmer so we went to the beach and swam in the lake. That was my first time fully submerged in the lake and it was great! Then we dried off by playing frisbee on the beach which was also a ton of fun. We went on dates to mcdonalds, wendys, and burger king. lol…and we also went to the drive in as well. One time we even did a double date with my roommate and her boyfriend, that was the night we finally kissed also. I thought this one was going to turn into an actual relationship but he proved me wrong about that one then told me he didn’t want a girlfriend yet currently has one. Oh well. He was a great guy and a ton of fun. omgoodness, how could i forget…he came out to my house in January when my parents were gone and we went out to the bars with my best friend, and another friend and her boyfriend. It was SUCH a good night! So much fun.
Let’s see who else…a few other guys who i was just causal hooking up with and hanging out with for quite a few months. One hates me because he thought i really liked him which i never said but apparently he really liked me and is mad so he deleted me from everything. The other just left for Afghanistan and i’m actually really sad he is gone for 15 months because he became a great friend.
Then over Jterm break I met a guy at a bar in my time and we hung out for that whole long weekend. it was love at first sight. without a doubt. I’ve never had feelings so fast for someone in my life. We talked for hours and hours at the bar and i kicked his ass at darts…he never saw that coming…neither did i. the next night we played pool and i was a pool shark…almost won. Then we watched the hawks and later went back to his place and watched a movie. I left and he txtd me saying i thought you were going to kiss me. being who i am and not making the first move I didn’t kiss him but said aww i’m sorry i can turn around. He said he wouldn’t mind. I turned around and went back to his place. he hopped in my car and it was the best kiss of my life. so perfect i can’t even explain it. I instantly fell in love. It’s crazy i know. Next day was the Super Bowl so i went over there to watch it and stayed there until it was over. i was cleaning off my car getting ready to leave and he came out and said ya know, you don’t have to leave if you don’t want to. he convinced me to stay. he missed me already. he had the same feelings for me as i did for him. so we just cuddled all night. then i went back over there the next day before i came back to school and just cuddled again. he was sad i had to leave and wouldn’t be home for a few weeks. how did we build something so strong in such a short time?! I have no idea but it was great. he would txt me how he missed me and missed kissing me and couldn’t wait for me to come back home. it was the best and we weren’t even dating! He told me he wanted me to come home earlier than i was going to…he wanted me to come home for valentines day. The week of valentines he txtd me saying he couldnt’ do this anymore and still had feelings for his ex. the day before valentines rolls around and he asked if i was still coming home and he wanted me to. i didn’t want to but i did. he never really explained what happened with his ex tho. so i went home. we went out to the bars for valentines and just had a good time. oh and we had dinner too. i bought dinner and some drinks because he hadn’t been paid yet, so before we left the bar he stood up and kissed me. It was completely unexpected but beyond perfect. the little things are what get me. So i stayed for the weekend. we went to the movies and got some pizza before i left to go home. i got back to school and after that week, i haven’t heard from him since. i was pissed.
oh man who was after that…umm…he might be it. i have been talking to a lot of guys for a really long time but never met them…i’ve finally met a few which has been great. talked for 4 hours with one in his car one night when we first met. he’s a super great guy and amazingly attractive as i knew from his pictures but those never do justice. perfect teeth and he has goals in life and just…wow. he was awesome. and i’ve met more local guys from around kenosha as well. spent some time with them but nothing has happened and also met more guys here on campus. spending time with them, having some fun, all of the above. Not sure where i intend to go with any of these guys, not sure if any of them have ideas either. i guess i’m just still doing things for myself, along with now adding josh to the mixture again.
I have had one heck of a year with school and relationships that’s for sure.
Now to face graduation which hopefully my grandma can make it to. She is the only grandparent i have left and couldn’t make it to my high school graduation because her back wash hurting. Well, at this point in her life pain is inevitable. she is always in pain it is just a matter of figuring out how to help her feel better. So she better be able to make it or i won’t even want to walk across the stage. she missed a huge step of my life in high school and i don’t want her to miss this. it will mean everything to me for her to make it up here with my parents. she means the world to me and i love more grandma to death more than i love anyone. My grandma is the greatest person there is and i have no clue what i would do without her. her sense of humor is fantastic and i think that is why i love her so much. so the next 15 days are filled with worries of her making it up her also. i know she would love to see my graduate. especially since we have no clue if she will get to see my wedding day since i’m not getting married in september anymore. i hope she makes it.
oh man…my hands are tired. i think i’ve said it all now and need to go eat my oreos.